Remembering

Now that Lauren has been with us over five months now, I find it hard to remember what it was like before we had her. What I do remember as I read my myspace blog from when I was pregnant is that I wanted to spend as much time with MJ as I could before she got here. I will copy and paste that blog at the bottom of this post so you can read it. It really captured what I was feeling, and I tried to put that emotion into the layout I did today with Beckie's Frosted Windowpanes kit.



July 12, 2007 - Thursday
My time with Maddie
Current mood: thankful
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

Now that this pregnancy is coming to an end, I am hearing a clock ticking in my head. Not the kind of clock you are thinking of, I actually feel just as young as I did ten years ago. The clock is a remind that my time alone with Madelyn is coming to an end. Soon there will be two little girls that I have to share myself with.

Now, for the past week or so, I have been just staring at Madelyn trying to memorize every feature of her face: her hazel eyes, her curly hair, her long eyelashes. I have been trying to cram as much into the time I have alone with her as I can. I feel a desperation that I can't even describe. I wonder if she will remember at what it was like when it was just mommy, daddy and her.

Well, she might not, but I will.

How lucky am I to be her mom? She has been the most amazing child (of course, I am biased). She just has something special. I don't know where she got it. I do know that she got my humor :) She got her daddy's eyes. She is sensitive and loving, funny and very polite. She is not shy (not even a little bit)... not sure where she gets that from, JUST KIDDING! She is an entertainer at heart. She is such a little individual already.

So, for the next week or so, I will be eating my cheerios at the little table with her even though it hurts my ass and back! I will be dancing to the Wiggles, even though it takes all the energy I have. I will let her come into bed with me when she wakes up in the morning and watch Sesame Street, just because I like snuggling with her. I will be sneaking into her room every night after she falls asleep just to look at her precious little angelic face.

I can't wait to meet baby Lauren, but will miss my 'alone' time with Maddie Jo.