One sided friendships

I just want to put this down in writing - I am through with one sided friendships. I am not sure what it is in my personality that makes me this way, but I feel obliged to nurture a relationship. I value my friends, and the memories that go along with them. So, why is it that it seems so often I am the only one doing this?

Just for the record, I am not going to nurture and value a friendshiop on my own. I am so tired of placing my trust and value in a friendship when the other person doesn't. If we are acquaintances, thats fine too. But then say that, don't 'neeeeed me' when you need me and then disappear when you don't.

I want to say here that I am not the type of friend that needs to talk to you daily, weekly or even monthly. My closest friends know that. I like to catch up with my friends when they have time. Just like me, they have jobs and families and are very busy at times. But I want to know what is going on with you, not just continually call, email and text you to get no response whatsoever. On a side note, I realize that people go through times that they are super-ridiculously busy, or have something new in their lives and need time. I am not talking about that either, I understand that. I do that too!

So, if I call and leave you a message, at least text me back and say that you got it, and that you'll call me when you get a minute. Send me a card at Christmas!

Let me just put it this way; I am no longer going out of my way for people who wouldn't go out of their way for me. I am not calling if you don't return phone calls. I am not going to nurture our friendship for the sake of the friendship. I have enough friends that I don't need to do that.

I had a friend, who I thought was one of my best friends, ost because I didn't continue to track her butt down, call her, email her, text her every few months. Sadly, when I stopped, so did our friendship. She has seen Madelyn once, and probably doesn't even know I have Lauren. It disgusts me because she continued a sharade of a 'best friend' for so long, that I feel a loss. Unfortunately, I don't think she does.

So, at this point, I have to value my pride and my time more than the friendships. If these people truly cared about me, they would be in my life.

Nuff said about that!

Snow Day !

So, we all get a snow day today!!!

WHOOOO HOOOOOOO!

Ok, I love snow days. No matter how old I get, I still get excited to wake up, turn on the news and watch for cancellations and delays. Now, today is different because I actually have somewhere fun and exciting to go !

THE LION KING IS TONITE!

Of course, the snow would come today! The only day I have plans; the plans I have been waiting for three months now. The snow comes today. I should have guessed this would happen. You all know my luck, right?

So anyway - thats my scoop for today.

We took MJ out to play in the snow, because who knows when we will see anymore. Don't tell me there is no such thing as global warming - we had a 65º day in the past ten days ! IT'S FREAKIN FEBRUARY! Then today we get snow - of course.

And when I was young there was a good chance we would get a blizzard on Halloween - this is our first REAL snow fall this year. We have had mild winters here for too long for it to be coincidence! Sorry, but I am with Al Gore on this one !!! Of course, when I was younger they would have never cancelled school for a day like today - we would have been out at the dang bus-stop shivering our tookus'es off waiting as slush was sprayed onto us by passing cars, I am just sayin!

I will post some pics of MJ playing in the snow in a bit!

Too much...

Too much has gone on to write about now. It has been a rough few days, and I just want to put it behind me. I will get personall tomorrow, and I will have a cute video of Lauren to show you too! I will leave you with the two layouts I made this week.

The first one was created using Beckie Wallace's brand new LOVE LETTERS kit. It has some really unique papers and elements in it. I love that :)

This next one I made tonite with Amy Leigh Fennell's new A RIOT OF COLOR kit. This is actually the second layout I made with the kit, because I lost the first one due to a power outage. It sucks living on a hill when its windy yo! My fault for not saving early, and often. I know better!!

Both kits are available exclusively at GDS!

New layout --- and an update

So I found out within the past few days that my cousin Deana is pregnant - I am so stinking excited I could pee my pants! I can't wait to find out all the scoop tomorrow. We are going to see her at her restaurant for dinner - the whole gang. With all the family disruption / parting of ways / basically written people off / dead to me stuff, we aren't taking the ones we have left for granted. We are all going to celebrate for Deana - and I just can't wait!

I made a layout tonite with Beckie Wallace's new Fairywings - which are beautiful. I just am not a master extractor yet - I am getting better, but I am still not great. Therefore, I am not sure if I really like how this turned out. I don't hate it, but I wish it were different. To be honest, I don't even know what I would change about it ! I guess I just wish I were better at extracting, but I will improve with time and practice!

Maddie is slowly getting better, she definitely is still on the mend - but is improving everyday. Thanks to all for your well wishes for her :)

Spoke too soon...

Well, I guess I jumped the gun on the 'all on the mend' call from yesterday! Mike had to work daylight today, so I woke up to Maddie's usually knock, knock on her door to let me know she is up. I sat up and hollered for her to come on in and climb in bed with me (we snuggle while I wake up). . . . Nothing! I holler again, trying not to awaken the other bug. . . . Nothing!

So, I get up and go to her door, I turn the knob, open the door, and it hits her. She is laying on the floor. I said, "what's wrong baby?" and she said, "I need a drink of water".

I get her a drink and she climbs in my bed, and is just about asleep when the little bug wakes up (figures, right?). So, we all get up and come into the living room. She climbs on the couch and asks for a pillow and blanket and her cow!?! I felt her head, and she seemed ok, just very tired and lethargic. I asked her if she wanted waffles and she said sure... so I thought that she must just still be tired.

We have breakfast, and the morning progresses and she still doesn't wake up, doesn't want to play, just wants to lay on the couch and watch the super sleuths.

I had some laundry to fold, so I went into our bedroom and I turn around and she is laying on the floor outside my door! I asked her repeatedly if she felt ok, and her response continued to be, "Can I hold you, mommy?" - well, of course she could :( She had no fever, thank goodness.

She took a nap about 1pm and woke about 4pm - and she seemed to have a little hop in her step then. So maybe she was just tired, who knows.

We are still having the poop issues - I have to call the doc tomorrow. This seems to be dragging on a little long for my liking. I know she has an appointment coming up, but I can't watch her struggle the way she does. Plus its only putting a stigma for her on pooping on the potty... which I can't have - she is so close to being potty trained. I don't want her to regress because of this.

So, anywho the Giants won the Superbowl - whoo hooo! Well, I guess if it couldn't be the Steelers, the Giants will do. Plaxico got the game winning TD - hmmm. Not sure how I feel about that. He did shed a few tears during the post-game. So as a chick, I gotta appreciate the fact that he was sentimental about it and didn't mind showing it. We'll just say he earned a couple points back in my tally book - but he has some serious deficits to overcome before he can get back in my good graces.

Either way, I definitely didn't want to see Tom Brady up there getting that trophy AGAIN! I just don't like him. I don't know why... I just don't. Not to mention that I think the NFL swept the entire 'cheating' incident under the rug, why? Thats what I want to know... I hope Congress does decide to do some investigation as to why the NFL decided destroying evidence would be ok in this case. That doesn't even begin to touch on my feelings about this - why was the NFL so quick to be like 'its over.... we penalized the guilty - now move on' - uh, not really. And for them to say that the Pat's had no real advantage - well thats bullshit too! If there was no real advantage, they wouldn't have been penalized at all. They just didn't want any additional negative publicity for the NFL, especially after the barrage of bad press players and teams have been getting lately (i.e. the bagillion pending lawsuits and criminal charges against NFL players). I think the entire Cincinnati Bengals team is on parole, probation, doing community service or awaiting trials for one thing or another. Ah, but I digress....

If it couldn't be the Steelers... I am ok with the Giants.

By the way - the Steelers were voted, by the fans, the best decade dynasty for the 1970's team led by Terry Bradshaw... so put that in your pipe and smoke it :)

Here is a layout I did tonite using Karla's Kaleidoscope Designs' Heartfelts. There are 20 hearts in the kit, and they are so realistic. Really fun to use :) I love this layout. I was able to make my own alpha using a paper from Karla's Cupids Crush kit - then I used a painted wood action from atomic cupcake on it.

On the mend.....

Well, my house is on the mend! Thank heavens. Last night MJ had one last sick hurrah before bed... all the way from the recliner in the living room to the bathroom. Poor kid. So, I spent the day on a MAJOR disinfecting mission in the house. I love it when my house is clean - it is such a feeling of accomplishment!

So, nothing else going on! I was able to get a layout done during naptime today - thought I would share.

Credits: Amy Leigh Fennell's Metro Springtime available at GDS.

When terrible gets worse ... it looks like this.

Again, TMI Warning:

Well, I was supposed to go in to work today as the librarian, but that didn't happen. At about 2:30am, MJ woke me and climbed in my bed. She seemed ok, but I quickly heard her stomach make an unusual noise, then she started crying and said, "Mama, I have the hiccups" - I sat straight up, but it was already too late. She got sick in our bed, I rushed her into the bathroom and she was sick again. This went on ALL NIGHT. She was a mess. This was the first time as a 'little girl' that she was sick. She doesn't remember the last time she threw up because she was a baby.

So, we got about forty minutes sleep here and there because about every twenty minutes she would heave again. I felt so bad for her, she was so upset because we had to change her clothes three times and she would just cry, "I got it on my foot" or "Its on my shirt again!" She was horrified at the messes she was making even though I keep reassuring her that it was ok, and that I would take care of it.

So, this morning we had an ice storm and the school issued a two hour delay - I knew at that point that as the LIBRARIAN, it was truly no big deal that I wasn' t there for four periods of school. I called in and said that I couldn't come in because my daughter was very ill.

They were cool about it, but I still hate to leave them hanging. Unfortunately, they get the short end of the stick there.

As the day progressed, MJ refused to eat anything... her fever started to spike. We took a short nap together and my MIL kept Lauren. When she woke her fever was 103.2. I was able to get it down with some medicine drops, and she ate a bit. She seems to be perking up now, but what a mentally exhausting day.

I have been really blessed that neither of my kids have gotten really ill. Maddie has only had one emergency visit to the doctor, and one ear infection that they caught at a well-baby visit. KNOCK ON WOOD. So we really aren't used to 'sickness' in the house. I feel a little guilty because I can't help but think I brought this home last week from the Kindergarten (see previous post about Kindergarten and the little girl who got sick everywhere) and it was just laying dormant until MJ picked it up.

So, I have a layout that I did a few days ago, but was waiting for Amy Leigh's new kits to go into the store to post. Here is it.......

Credits: Amy Leigh Fennell's Metro Springtime kit available at GDS.